Its been the same goal since day one, none changed.

When they advance me this check, coulda bought my way to heaven, but i blow it on my neck.

The strong do as they shall, the weak do as they must.

They say, "You're only as good as your last idea."

Nobody Rides For Free.

Deep down inside i was never worried, i always knew somehow i was gna make it.

Ill bet the farm before i take a loss.

Never planned for it to happen but thats jst the way things went down.
Now what im used to, aint what it used to be.

Even when repaired, all the cracks and dents stand out.

R.I.P. Bac Duong

Forever in my prayers, youre in a better place now.

what i do is not right or wrong, it aint good or bad, it is what it is.

Im turning into somebody i dnt wna become.

Its hard to see it happen right before my face, chill out gucci.

Guns dnt kill people, people do.

The truth dont prevail no more.

I wish there was an easier way.

But theres not so what is life?
I guess we can call it a beautiful struggle.
But whats so beautiful about it?
Nothing, so i call it a struggle.

Dnt follow where the path leads you, but go on your own route and leave a trail.

All it takes is one time.

Life.

I dnt believe life is based through our decisions, but more as the consequences to our decisions. Anyone can decide through their emotions and sometimes that is not the best thing for u. So before you act only after thinking about your decision, think about the consequences.

Decisions for the right or wrong reasons, consequences are the same.
Good thing i didnt learn the hard way.

Worries never stop coming, life's a never ending game.

Like nyquil i drop fevas.

And if i die before i wake, i pray the Lord my soul to take.

Things are different, i feel no longer southbay comforted.
Time to leave and start my own path somewhere else.
I wont follow the path that is premade, ill make my own trail.
Theres jst nothing left for me here, ultimately i need to get on with life.
Those who are real i dnt doubt we'll seperate, see yall in a little.

At first all you talk about is how u got a boyfriend, now everytime he call youre ignoring him.

Gettin my life bck on track.

I could really use a wish right now...

Lately ive been realizing my graduation from high school? my diploma? thats all a fluke the community high schools i went to didnt prepare me for shit. It jst taught and helped me build my connections to more illegal things. Now the the script has flipped on me, honestly school aint the thing for me i can do it, but honestly i would rather not and i feel my effort should be used for something else, either im right or im jst god damned lazy. I feel i cannot go on with college and im a waste of potential, instead of using my knowledge on books and energy in school i used my knowledge for business and my energy to run the business. Fuck the foundry community and fuck calero community yall fucked me over, i didnt know college would be like this, my diploma should really be burned i dnt deserve it, i got expelled 3 times and my consequences is to graduate early? the systems screwed. I jst wish i could jst go bck in time change one thing, i wish i had never turned out the way i am honestly it would make things better and make people happier...

Once is an accident, twice is a coincidence and three times is a trend.

How i see it.

The biggest influence in our lives is time. As we grow older we lose our childhood innocence. I guess its jst supposed to be all downhill after a certain point in your life, anyone can play it off as if they were truly happy all the time thats even what i did. But i now realized that that is not possible nd we jst keep chasing it and it makes us unhappy. As a kid i had a worry free life and that child spirit where nothing i did was wrong, bt as i grew up i lost the carefree lifestyle and now i keep on having to adjust to the changes of life and that, life itself, is overwhelming.

What hurts the most is i dnt even know whats wrong with me.

Once again...

I failed to keep up with my blogspot, if u guys came here for insight on life read my older posts...

Lblocc x Agnew, my hood. Uptown santa clara.

Straight alcoholics out here, our moods are down until we drink...

I Failed...

Im weak, so what blame me, im human, i couldnt stop smoking, i couldnt stop getting kicked out of school, i couldnt keep my parents happy, i couldnt stop hustling, i couldnt stop getting caught up, i couldnt stop taking shortcuts, i couldnt stop drinking, i couldnt stop lying, i couldnt stop cheating, i couldnt stop denying the truth, i couldnt stop not going to church, i couldnt stop living the fast life, i couldnt stop screwing up, i couldnt stop life...This is the way i am take me for who i am, Lord forgive me on the last day because i do not believe i can stop doing these things, maybe some but not everything...

"Without failing there will be no success."

Once again my theory of change and struggle prove me correct...

Even if i knew it would've came to this, i wouldnt have changed my decisions.

You dnt know me, you dnt wear my chain. I swear you wouldnt be able to walk a mile in my kicks.

Show love for my realist niggas, fuck showin love to niggas that dnt appreciate it.

"Better choose the right niggas to break bread with..."

People say im very intelligent...

I guess i jst used my intelligence on things other than books. I used it in the real world outside the classroom, the streets, because I believe formal education will make you a living, but self education will make you a fortune. I guess you guys can say i went down the wrong path, oh well see yall at the finish line.

Changes.

Every situation changes, ive realized this. Sometimes ill be riding high thinking nothing can go wrong and itll be perfect from here on out, but then something every single time goes wrong and i then reach a new low in my life. This has happened on numerous occasions so i have no doubt in my mind that this is true. I guess life isnt supposed to be that easy and it is supposed to challenge us, this is why we can never reach a point where we are happy forever and that is why will smith said that whole pursuit of happiness thing. I think becus our whole life will be a pursuit of happiness.

"Without accepting the fact that everything changes, we cannot find perfect composure. But unfortunately, although it is true, it is difficult for us to accept it. Because we cannot accept the truth of change that is why we suffer."

New fone.

Palm treo.

Im not a businessman, im a business, man!

Gucci shades on my face, now ya girl wnna taste.

Yesterday i had a good night with my niggas. It was kind of like last weekend i can honestly say i had a very good time without being under the influence of drugs or alcohol. Im not saying i never wnna do those things again, but its nice to step bck and have some sober fun once and awhile. And before we went out we worked out, it was relaxing and got shit off my mind, especially the jacuzzi thats where my mind went free.

I actually like drinking tho...I feel sorry for those who dnt drink becus in the morning thats the best theyre going to feel all day...

I want a girl thats sweeter than my swisher hahaha.

What do you do when your best option is to suck it up and let it go?

They say 10% of life is what happens and 90% is how you react to it so i gtta think about this one ha. But some advice from a movie, revenge for the right or wrong reasons, consequences are the same...

Im done with school for the week so time to kick bck and ease it out and have a nice weekend.

Cus i swear when that shit happened i kinda wished yall bucked.

Cus that killed my income and my fone it was straight disgust.

“Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. Fortunately, I love money.”

Keep in my mind ill always remember whoever was there when i was at my lowest point.

This regards to bck when i was on house arrest, i dnt know who actually came to visit and keep me company during the summer where i was on EMP and who jst came by jst because there was nothing else to do, this was where everybody was at, or they jst wanted food or to gamble...In actuality i could jst be trippen and everyone came threw jst for me but iono it could be different cus it was 15 deep everynight for 45 nights while i was on house arrest. I thank all the niggas and females that kept me company. I kind of miss those days, this was when everyone was hella coo and close, i wouldnt like to be on emp again but im jst sayin it was a time where i could say $c/mtown where close and together. Now shit so fucked up i dnt even know, im coo with most of mtown so its hard to hear one nigga tellin me how another nigga is frontin or whatever, cus yall both my niggas nahmean and what am i supposed to do, im not really trippen jst wanted to express myself on the fact that its hard seeing niggas that used to be boys and girls that used to be homegirls jst start not knowing each other and not getting along haha oh well...

Life go on people change, times change, circumstances change, settings change, but memories never do.

Now the whole shit's changed, and we don't even kick it.

Lately i been kickin it with jst a few of my boys, the close one its like the other niggas we used to be close with over summer got other priorities and cnt even hit us up no more. Its all good yall still my niggas but seem like shit changed. Shit like that makes a nigga think, thats why im tryna get enlightened about life and how everything works. How u can be so close to someone and in a matter of a few days all connections lost, this regarding to relationships and friendships its crazy..


I got many niggas id ride for, but only a few id die for....

Truth

if a nigga rollin or faded.......2 points up on the rictor scale hahah.

If i was your best friend...hehe

shit slaps,





where the girl for me tho i honestly need someone to change me and keep me outta bad habits, i dnt want someone that'll let me do as i please, someone to change my motto of forever mackin...a best friend be nice, or better a ride or die thats down for me ha.

No chain but i shines nice.

Damn weekend was crazy can u say smackin HARD, i honestly miss rollin but the whole next few days is really hurting. I was depressed for the past two days and i felt horrible, maybe its cus my niggas goin threw shit and tellin me so that brings me down but iono i think mdma got some to do with it too.

On top of all that, i really think ive done everything ive ever wanted to do in my lifetime beside making a million dollars. Also ive partied too much and have had too much fun in the past so now when im doing things it seems boring or doesnt meet expectations so alotta times my mood be down. I dnt really wear my emotions on my arms but i think the only times i can say im having a good time is chillen with the boys, chillen with females, drinking, smoking, excersizing, gambing, and moving weight.....

Good thing tho is im getting off probation in 2 weeks, maybe that sweet optimo with that burberry kush make time slow down and help the pain walk away.