Once again...

I failed to keep up with my blogspot, if u guys came here for insight on life read my older posts...

Lblocc x Agnew, my hood. Uptown santa clara.

Straight alcoholics out here, our moods are down until we drink...

I Failed...

Im weak, so what blame me, im human, i couldnt stop smoking, i couldnt stop getting kicked out of school, i couldnt keep my parents happy, i couldnt stop hustling, i couldnt stop getting caught up, i couldnt stop taking shortcuts, i couldnt stop drinking, i couldnt stop lying, i couldnt stop cheating, i couldnt stop denying the truth, i couldnt stop not going to church, i couldnt stop living the fast life, i couldnt stop screwing up, i couldnt stop life...This is the way i am take me for who i am, Lord forgive me on the last day because i do not believe i can stop doing these things, maybe some but not everything...

"Without failing there will be no success."

Once again my theory of change and struggle prove me correct...

Even if i knew it would've came to this, i wouldnt have changed my decisions.

You dnt know me, you dnt wear my chain. I swear you wouldnt be able to walk a mile in my kicks.

Show love for my realist niggas, fuck showin love to niggas that dnt appreciate it.

"Better choose the right niggas to break bread with..."

People say im very intelligent...

I guess i jst used my intelligence on things other than books. I used it in the real world outside the classroom, the streets, because I believe formal education will make you a living, but self education will make you a fortune. I guess you guys can say i went down the wrong path, oh well see yall at the finish line.

Changes.

Every situation changes, ive realized this. Sometimes ill be riding high thinking nothing can go wrong and itll be perfect from here on out, but then something every single time goes wrong and i then reach a new low in my life. This has happened on numerous occasions so i have no doubt in my mind that this is true. I guess life isnt supposed to be that easy and it is supposed to challenge us, this is why we can never reach a point where we are happy forever and that is why will smith said that whole pursuit of happiness thing. I think becus our whole life will be a pursuit of happiness.

"Without accepting the fact that everything changes, we cannot find perfect composure. But unfortunately, although it is true, it is difficult for us to accept it. Because we cannot accept the truth of change that is why we suffer."

New fone.

Palm treo.

Im not a businessman, im a business, man!

Gucci shades on my face, now ya girl wnna taste.

Yesterday i had a good night with my niggas. It was kind of like last weekend i can honestly say i had a very good time without being under the influence of drugs or alcohol. Im not saying i never wnna do those things again, but its nice to step bck and have some sober fun once and awhile. And before we went out we worked out, it was relaxing and got shit off my mind, especially the jacuzzi thats where my mind went free.

I actually like drinking tho...I feel sorry for those who dnt drink becus in the morning thats the best theyre going to feel all day...

I want a girl thats sweeter than my swisher hahaha.

What do you do when your best option is to suck it up and let it go?

They say 10% of life is what happens and 90% is how you react to it so i gtta think about this one ha. But some advice from a movie, revenge for the right or wrong reasons, consequences are the same...

Im done with school for the week so time to kick bck and ease it out and have a nice weekend.

Cus i swear when that shit happened i kinda wished yall bucked.

Cus that killed my income and my fone it was straight disgust.

“Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. Fortunately, I love money.”

Keep in my mind ill always remember whoever was there when i was at my lowest point.

This regards to bck when i was on house arrest, i dnt know who actually came to visit and keep me company during the summer where i was on EMP and who jst came by jst because there was nothing else to do, this was where everybody was at, or they jst wanted food or to gamble...In actuality i could jst be trippen and everyone came threw jst for me but iono it could be different cus it was 15 deep everynight for 45 nights while i was on house arrest. I thank all the niggas and females that kept me company. I kind of miss those days, this was when everyone was hella coo and close, i wouldnt like to be on emp again but im jst sayin it was a time where i could say $c/mtown where close and together. Now shit so fucked up i dnt even know, im coo with most of mtown so its hard to hear one nigga tellin me how another nigga is frontin or whatever, cus yall both my niggas nahmean and what am i supposed to do, im not really trippen jst wanted to express myself on the fact that its hard seeing niggas that used to be boys and girls that used to be homegirls jst start not knowing each other and not getting along haha oh well...

Life go on people change, times change, circumstances change, settings change, but memories never do.

Now the whole shit's changed, and we don't even kick it.

Lately i been kickin it with jst a few of my boys, the close one its like the other niggas we used to be close with over summer got other priorities and cnt even hit us up no more. Its all good yall still my niggas but seem like shit changed. Shit like that makes a nigga think, thats why im tryna get enlightened about life and how everything works. How u can be so close to someone and in a matter of a few days all connections lost, this regarding to relationships and friendships its crazy..


I got many niggas id ride for, but only a few id die for....