Gettin my life bck on track.

I could really use a wish right now...

Lately ive been realizing my graduation from high school? my diploma? thats all a fluke the community high schools i went to didnt prepare me for shit. It jst taught and helped me build my connections to more illegal things. Now the the script has flipped on me, honestly school aint the thing for me i can do it, but honestly i would rather not and i feel my effort should be used for something else, either im right or im jst god damned lazy. I feel i cannot go on with college and im a waste of potential, instead of using my knowledge on books and energy in school i used my knowledge for business and my energy to run the business. Fuck the foundry community and fuck calero community yall fucked me over, i didnt know college would be like this, my diploma should really be burned i dnt deserve it, i got expelled 3 times and my consequences is to graduate early? the systems screwed. I jst wish i could jst go bck in time change one thing, i wish i had never turned out the way i am honestly it would make things better and make people happier...

Once is an accident, twice is a coincidence and three times is a trend.

How i see it.

The biggest influence in our lives is time. As we grow older we lose our childhood innocence. I guess its jst supposed to be all downhill after a certain point in your life, anyone can play it off as if they were truly happy all the time thats even what i did. But i now realized that that is not possible nd we jst keep chasing it and it makes us unhappy. As a kid i had a worry free life and that child spirit where nothing i did was wrong, bt as i grew up i lost the carefree lifestyle and now i keep on having to adjust to the changes of life and that, life itself, is overwhelming.

What hurts the most is i dnt even know whats wrong with me.